I've got to be real about some things. I am in love with someone. I didn't expect it, it was quite a suprise for me and I just feel scared right now. This girl, who I've not even really met is simply amazing. This sucks for me... I'm this guy in this national band and I'm traveling around all the time while she lives about 500 miles from my hometown. Sometimes I feel like her feelings aren't the same but other times I can just feel it in my entire being. This is just really weird for me. I feel confused about a lot of things and I just need to think things out but I feel like I can't. I'm trying to not focus on all of these issues with this girl because I need to focus on Sanctity right now. It just sucks, I absolutely miss this girl and I think about her all the time and right now she's just too busy or needing her own space to think about all of this as well. It just slays me that I can't talk to her. All I want to say is that I've been all around the world and who I want is her. This is just not like me at all and I need to change that. I've talked to some really old friends about this and it seems that I just need to wait it out.
Ugg enough of that. The band is doing really good. We seem to be getting more press in the states and that helps us out. We shot a video recently and it turned out great. We've got it submitted to RR and MTV and all that jazz. One thing that sucks is that our video was to 'graphic' because we had a toy gun in it... lame ... We head out for tour Tuesday, it is crazy!!! I simply can't wait for this because it will help me keep my mind off of my special someone. This tour should really help Sanctity move along with things.
I'm still trying to get the hang of coding again. I'm going to try and keep things pretty simple here. A lot of stuff is going on in my life and I'm gonna try to keep everything here as much as I can. Right now I just had to renew this domain and the band account. YAY. I've had a ton of requests for explanations on guitar solos from the album. I'll try to tab stuff out if I can. Well, that or just make a video.
Wow, it has been years since I've updated all of this.
Sooo much has happened since 2005. My band got signed that December and since then I've
recorded an album and toured the world. Amazing. A lot of things are bothering me right now, so I
think I'll be updating this quite a bit. Right now I'm trying to brush up on my html. I haven't done
this kind of stuff since 2005, I remember a lot about the coding but I still need to brush up.
I'm getting pissed off. It has become annoyingly hard to find
a job in the Asheville area. I figured that after my move I'd be able to get work
fairly quickly. Ugg, I need something fast before the end of next month. This
feels a little weird having a blog again, but it isn't much different from my
myspace page. Typically, I'll just post random thoughts here.
I was reading offtopic and someone wrote about burying their
dog. It was sad and made me think about Keila. I also hope things work out so
people I miss won't be sad.
I'm suprised that I am actually setting up another blog here
at this site. I guess I shouldn't complain, it has been nearly 2 years since I've
really had one going on this site. Anyways, I'm redesigning this so that I'll
have a sort of online portfolio of designs for classes and such.